I'm dreaming...and it feels good.
Prompt: Oprah's The Life You Want cards, leading me down the exploration of how I'm doing dreams my way, and what bold looks like to me right now.
As always, perfect timing, because I’m a dreamin’ baby. I’m dreaming of being more of me. Of stepping more fully into this space that is me and shining more of that as I move through the day and the world. I’m creating love notes that remind me of what I am calling in, and checking in on them daily, sometimes even a few times a day.
Here in New Zealand we’re moving into winter, and even though that traditionally feels like a hibernating time, I feel a call to plant seeds. Maybe comparable to those of us who plant bulbs as the nights are growing longer. And I’ve got some energy to water them, almost every day, which feels foreign after a long time of feeling most my energy spent on my separation and healing journey.
I feel a smile spread up my cheeks in wonder at the possibility of what flowers will emerge in my springtime.
Side note: this feeling isn’t very familiar, and I wonder…could it also be connected to my qigong training, literally shaking up stagnant energy on the daily, and giving space for flow and freshness?
Gently rather than pushy…
The curious thing is this energy for dreaming and action doesn’t feel rushy or pushy, or musty or shouldy. There’s an energy of go-slow and gentleness, yet not at the cost of movement.
As I move through the house creating my new body care products, I don’t feel the pressure I used to. I’ve got music on, or if it’s not too windy the windows are open welcoming in the sounds of the birds and the ocean. I move with my feet consciously on the ground and when I make a mistake I smile and feel an expansion in my chest at how far I’ve come.
In the past I would have beaten myself up.
I would have had almost unachievable deadlines, that if I didn’t reach meant so much about my inherent value as a person. But that energy has been transformed over the years of constant self-love doses and a gentleness with myself I’m really relishing at the moment (of course it ebbs and flows).
The dreaming and tiny steps…
So I sense that I’m in that dream space this card talks to. I’m dreaming of little things and big things and everything in between, and I am being bold. Bold for me. From the outside the might seem like the smallest steps, but I’m not measuring myself against anyone else.
I can feel the magic in these tiny steps, and I look forward to seeing what unfolds from this space of gentleness and possibility.
What are you dreaming? What teeny tiny (or big) steps are you taking that make you feel like you’re moving in the possibility of your dreams?